Today I got in an argument with my uncle and apparently, on top of believing ‘the media is brainwashing us to think being gay is okay’, he also believes racism doesn’t exist anymore, (“based on personal experience”) and that, despite me being raised in a conservative christian family, I only believe the things I believe because I’m a blind sheep who believes shit without question.
I honestly don’t give a fuck what kind of nonsense he decides to devote his life to, just don’t fucking talk down at me like I’m some kind of naive unhappy fuck for thinking it’s complete bullshit.
So I’ve been laying in bed literally all day doing stuff on my phone and sleeping and at around 5 or 6 pm my brother came into my room asking where our mom was. Turns out that while I was sleeping my mom left because she was feeling so depressed she had to check herself into a hospital. I feel so shitty, I know it’s not entirely my fault that she got to that point but I sure as hell am not helping by being so useless around the house. I’m gonna try and get a shit ton of cleaning done tomorrow so the house looks nice when she comes back.
I’m really grateful that she went to get help though (and the doctors decided to keep her there for a few days too), I always get really worried about her when she becomes so depressed that you can tell she is just completely fucking done with everything. I mean, I logically know she is a super responsible totally selfless person but I also know that sometimes depression and anxiety and shit like that can really fuck with your thought processes and that scares me a lot :(